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Female Narrator:
Previously on 'Forgive Me':
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You're drunk! You're drunk
right now so there's no point
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in me trying to have
this conversation with you.
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I'm not doing
this with you again.
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I'm not gonna do
it, we do this every time!
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Did you not get a call?
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No?
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Your brother's in
the ICU, he's in a coma.
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Can I give
him a kidney?
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Don't even
think about it.
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Even if you
were healthy, no!
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I love you.
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[struggles
to breathe]
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[sobs]
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You hear me?
You are very loved.
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You are a good person
and you deserve love.
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I'm listening.
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I unplugged him.
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Yeah?
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I didn't want him
to suffer anymore.
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? 'Ave Maria' by
Christopher Frances Mitchell ?
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? 'Ave Maria' by
Christopher Frances Mitchell ?
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? 'Ave Maria' by
Christopher Frances Mitchell ?
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[organ music plays softly]
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Popped up
out of nowhere.
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[mumbles]
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Yeah. You have nothing
to feel ashamed about.
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Evered.
Yeah?
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Can I borrow
you for a sec?
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It's fine, c'mon.
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Yeah, okay. Is
there anything I can do?
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Priest:
Don't sit with my family.
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I'm a friend.
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Not that
good a friend.
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Okay, everybody here is already
talking and I'm just asking you,
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please don't make my
brother's funeral about you.
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All right? Just
sit back here, okay?
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I'm, I'm here to
comfort your grandma.
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That's fine, you can
comfort her, in private.
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[sniggers]
I will.
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[organ music]
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[organ music]
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[organ music]
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Lamentations.
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My soul is
deprived of peace,
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I have forgotten
what happiness is.
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[pew door slams]
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I tell myself
my future is lost,
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all that I hoped
for from the Lord.
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The thought of my homeless
poverty is wormwood and gall;
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Remembering it over
and over leaves my soul
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downcast within me.
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But, I will call this to
mind, as my reason to have hope.
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The favours of the
Lord are not exhausted,
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his mercies
are not spent.
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They are renewed each morning,
so great is his faithfulness.
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My portion is the
Lord, says my soul;
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therefore will
I hope in him.
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Good is the Lord to
one who waits for him,
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to the soul
that seeks him.
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[group sings]
? One for me, one for me, drink one for me, yeah. ?
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? Raise your glass
and think on me tonight. ?
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? One for me, one for me,
drink one for me, yeah. ?
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? Raise your glass and
think on me tonight. ?
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[door opens and closes]
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How's the
view from there?
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Figured it was
my only chance.
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Oh, you know, you could
always be a lay reader.
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No, pope or nothin',
I want to be in charge.
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Look, I've got to
tell you something.
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It can wait.
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No, it's important.
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It's a funeral.
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[sighs]
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I'm your father.
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Well that's not
how I expected it.
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It's time like this that
remind us how precious life is.
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My life didn't get
any more precious today.
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I'm sorry,
you're right.
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I'm not stupid, I knew it
wasn't just some old lady,
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with a priest for
a son taking me in.
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You didn't say anything.
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Why would I?
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I didn't want
to upset anybody.
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We didn't
want to upset you,
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and other people.
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Okay, so you told me.
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What does it change?
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[softly] I
don't know.
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[sighs] Well,
thanks for telling me.
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Female voice:
YOU DID IT!
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[muffled arguing]
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I do love you.
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[trotting footsteps,
door opens and closes]
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[muffled arguing]
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You coulda helped him
but you just stood there!
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YOU DUMPED HIM!
You let him drown.
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HE WAS YOUR KID
AND YOU DUMPED HIM!
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YOU LEFT HIM!
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Fuck you!
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LOOK AT HER! SHE'S
THE MOTHER FROM HELL!
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OH, LIKE YOU
SHOULD KNOW!
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Drunken slut!
That's what you--!
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You took him
away from me! I loved him!
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Drunken slut!
Get out! [screams]
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You don't belong
in this building! You killed him!
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You don't belong in here!
Go! Keep talking! Go on.
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What, you finally fuckin'
proved it to me, did you?
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Shut your mouth.
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[sobbing] YOU! YOU LET
HIM GO TOO, YOU FUCKER!
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Come with me.
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Fucking fraud!
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I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
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It's all right.
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You want me to stay!
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No, listen!
Listen! Listen to me!
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When your brother
was in the hospital
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and the doctor
went over his options,
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I realized things had to change,
for me and for your grandfather.
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So you're going to put
him in an institution?
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Your grandfather wouldn't want
to be my 24 hour a day concern.
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He would want
me to have a life.
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Can you not put your own life
on hold for just a little while?
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Four years he's
been laying in there,
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I could have
died before him.
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I know. I know.
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No, you don't know!
I do, I get it!
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No, no, no.
Don't bullshit me! It's sacrifice!
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You are no help!
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I have nuns coming
to you every week--
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Because you don't
want to do it yourself!
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But you
expect me to!
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Look, I will help you
more, I can do it now.
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[sighs] You have
your hands full.
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I don't have many
years left on this planet.
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You may have even less, to
be a father, to your daughter.
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I can't.
Not right now.
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You don't want to be a
father to your daughter,
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you don't have to.
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I don't judge you.
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I don't judge you for
doing what you have to do
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but don't you judge me.
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I'm not. I'm not!
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Why don't we
just make room here,
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why don't we make
room in the house for me?
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[heavy breath]
I'm selling the house.
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I don't want it.
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Where are you
going to live?
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I don't want to be here
in the winter, it's too cold.
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I want to go where it's
warm, I want to do things.
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I need you to
reconsider this,
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I need you to seriously
reconsider the timing of this.
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I'm under scrutiny!
Severe scrutiny by the bishop!
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Why do your problems
always become mine?
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I don't care
about a bishop!
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[sighs]
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Look around you.
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Everyone is dying.
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Maybe even you.
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I guess it must be hard to
outlive your grandchildren.
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[sighs]
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I need a rest.
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Ah, you're back.
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In the flesh.
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What's up?
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I got into a
fight with my mom,
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at the goddamn wake.
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You want to confess?
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Didn't I just do that?
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You gotta do the
whole thing, it's uh,
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'Forgive me Father
for I have sinned'
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and it's, uh, it's
part of the whole thing.
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[sigh of frustration]
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Forgive me Father,
for I have sinned.
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How long has it been
since your last confession?
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I don't know, was last
time, was that a confession?
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So. You got into a
fight, with your mother?
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I made her cry. I don't
feel very good about it.
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But what happened?
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I guess I wasn't as cool with
the whole thing as I thought.
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I saw the old man laying in the
box and it uh, fucked with me?
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Were you afraid?
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Was definitely a shock.
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Being faced
with mortality, it's...
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it's an extremely
personal experience.
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We all react
differently to it, it's okay.
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There's nothing wrong
with feeling overwhelmed.
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I hadn't seen the
guy in so damn long.
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Thought I
hated him, y'know?
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I built up this
version of him in my head.
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The guy who
yelled at me.
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Y'know, gave me shit?
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I walked into
the funeral home,
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I just couldn't
hold on to the anger.
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[softly] Yo, he
looked like wax.
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Y'know, covered in blush,
like a fucking schoolgirl.
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Is that the first death
in your immediate family?
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My grandparents and
shit but... they're old.
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My father
wasn't even sixty.
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Y'know, it
didn't make sense.
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I lost it.
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I went to a bar.
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I got loaded.
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Wasn't even one-thirty, but
I just had to do something.
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Yeah, and your mother
was upset that you left.
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No, she was
upset I came back.
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[laughs]
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There's this photographer
who figured out where I was,
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he was outside
snapping pictures,
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I was stumbling around the room
in front of all of her friends.
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She said I made the
whole thing about myself.
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She's grieving too.
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No. No, she's right.
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I could have
stopped myself.
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I knew it
was fucked up,
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but I just wanted her
to know how I felt. Y'know?
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She started in about
how, how I was a stranger,
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to my own family.
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And I told her I didn't
give a shit about her.
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Is that true?
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'Course not.
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Y'know.
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I might be a little screwed
up but I'm not a total asshole.
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I love her.
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She's my mom.
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So. All you, all you gotta
do is go and tell her that.
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Nah, I can't go back.
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My sisters
are pissed at me.
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They'd been dealing
with the arrangements
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and trying to
keep her together.
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[heavy sigh]
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I'm just adding
to the problems.
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One of them told me if I
was gonna be such a prick,
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I should have
just stayed in L.A.
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You just gotta go... and
ask them for forgiveness.
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Look, it's not uncommon
to be angry in times of loss,
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we've been there, all of
us have been there, okay?
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It's, it's a part
of the grieving process,
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it's part of your
process, your sisters'.
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I didn't think I'd
miss him, but I already do.
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What would you
tell him if you could?
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I wish we
had more years.
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To get to know
each other, as men.
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I wanted you
to respect me.
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And?
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And I'm sorry!
[hands smack together]
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Let's pray.
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Lord we ask for your
guidance and support
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during Royce's
time of mourning.
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Allow him to see the
gifts that he processes,
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the depth of
his strength.
252
00:15:16,413 --> 00:15:18,964
And we pray
for his family.
253
00:15:19,068 --> 00:15:23,482
That they find peace
during this time of loss.
254
00:15:23,584 --> 00:15:25,964
We ask that you accept
his father into the kingdom
255
00:15:26,068 --> 00:15:29,275
of your mercies, so one
day they may meet again. [exhales]
256
00:15:29,378 --> 00:15:32,619
In ever lasting happiness,
in the name of the Father,
257
00:15:32,722 --> 00:15:35,447
and the Son and
the Holy Spirit.
258
00:15:35,551 --> 00:15:39,964
[exhales deeply]
259
00:15:41,309 --> 00:15:43,447
Will you come with
me to the funeral?
260
00:15:43,551 --> 00:15:45,653
Be nice to have
someone there on my side.
261
00:15:45,757 --> 00:15:48,516
Look, your family
is... on your side.
262
00:15:48,619 --> 00:15:51,964
Yeah, but you
know what I mean.
263
00:15:52,068 --> 00:15:53,584
Okay.
264
00:15:53,688 --> 00:15:54,999
Okay, yeah.
265
00:15:55,102 --> 00:15:56,653
Thanks.
266
00:15:59,344 --> 00:16:02,516
Sorry I was such a smart ass
the other day. [clicks tongue]
267
00:16:02,619 --> 00:16:03,929
I was just high.
268
00:16:04,033 --> 00:16:05,516
It's... fine,
I forgive you.
269
00:16:05,619 --> 00:16:07,757
Just go and talk to
your mother, all right?
270
00:16:07,860 --> 00:16:10,550
Yeah. Yeah, all right.
271
00:16:10,653 --> 00:16:14,033
Good.
272
00:16:14,137 --> 00:16:15,999
[shakes screen between them]
273
00:16:16,102 --> 00:16:25,860
[both laugh]
274
00:16:25,964 --> 00:16:29,378
You have
really nice eyes.
275
00:16:29,482 --> 00:16:30,860
[snickers]
276
00:16:32,413 --> 00:16:33,860
See you Thursday.
277
00:16:37,757 --> 00:16:39,344
[door closes]
278
00:16:39,447 --> 00:16:40,895
[chuckles]
279
00:16:52,068 --> 00:16:59,413
[softly groans]
280
00:17:10,481 --> 00:17:23,999
[city noises]
281
00:17:24,102 --> 00:17:34,033
?
282
00:17:34,137 --> 00:17:47,791
?
283
00:17:49,102 --> 00:17:51,722
[door opens and closes]
284
00:17:51,826 --> 00:17:54,102
Mmm... [groans]
285
00:17:54,206 --> 00:17:56,068
You all right?
286
00:17:56,171 --> 00:17:59,826
Yeah, yeah,
thanks for coming today.
287
00:17:59,929 --> 00:18:01,826
Is the uh, is
the reception over?
288
00:18:01,929 --> 00:18:05,515
Mmm, most people have
gone back to my mom's.
289
00:18:05,619 --> 00:18:07,137
[smacks gums]
290
00:18:07,240 --> 00:18:09,722
I, uh--
[burps and clears throat]
291
00:18:09,826 --> 00:18:12,826
didn't realize
there was booze downstairs.
292
00:18:12,929 --> 00:18:15,137
Nope! I
smuggled mine in.
293
00:18:16,757 --> 00:18:18,137
[sighs]
294
00:18:18,240 --> 00:18:19,722
You want some?
295
00:18:19,826 --> 00:18:23,964
No. No, thank you.
296
00:18:24,068 --> 00:18:25,515
Mmm.
297
00:18:25,619 --> 00:18:28,826
Talk to your
mother, or your sisters?
298
00:18:28,929 --> 00:18:32,999
Said I was sorry.
I tried to, anyway.
299
00:18:33,102 --> 00:18:36,515
She said she didn't
want to get into all of it.
300
00:18:36,619 --> 00:18:40,826
She wanted to just...
get through this week.
301
00:18:40,929 --> 00:18:47,137
Yeah, give her
some time, right?
302
00:18:47,240 --> 00:18:48,999
Remember what you
said the other day?
303
00:18:49,102 --> 00:18:50,619
She's your mom.
304
00:18:50,722 --> 00:18:52,826
[exhales]
You love her.
305
00:18:52,929 --> 00:18:54,171
You both see that.
306
00:18:54,275 --> 00:18:57,033
Hopefully sooner rather
than later but don't rush her.
307
00:18:57,137 --> 00:19:00,550
Let her find her own
path to forgiving you.
308
00:19:05,757 --> 00:19:09,206
I want you to
confess something to me.
309
00:19:09,309 --> 00:19:11,860
[laughs] That's
not how this works.
310
00:19:11,964 --> 00:19:14,550
Well I told you all
that shit about myself,
311
00:19:14,653 --> 00:19:16,619
y'know, how
I was feeling.
312
00:19:16,722 --> 00:19:18,206
And you felt better!
313
00:19:18,309 --> 00:19:20,895
Well, how is that fair?
314
00:19:20,999 --> 00:19:23,895
You have the power.
315
00:19:23,999 --> 00:19:25,619
You know me.
316
00:19:27,619 --> 00:19:30,206
I can see it
in your face.
317
00:19:30,309 --> 00:19:33,171
In your eyes.
318
00:19:33,275 --> 00:19:37,688
There's something
hiding there...
319
00:19:37,791 --> 00:19:41,206
I want to know.
320
00:19:41,309 --> 00:19:44,068
Penance isn't
about power. Right?
321
00:19:44,171 --> 00:19:45,895
It's about
unburdening yourself;
322
00:19:45,999 --> 00:19:48,068
I'm, I'm not here to
hold anything against you.
323
00:19:48,171 --> 00:19:50,688
How do you unburden?
324
00:19:50,791 --> 00:19:52,033
Who forgives
the forgiver?
325
00:19:52,137 --> 00:19:54,102
Not you.
326
00:19:54,206 --> 00:19:57,860
You know, I've thought
about it, since the other day.
327
00:19:57,964 --> 00:19:59,206
[sniffs]
328
00:19:59,308 --> 00:20:04,068
I've never sat
down and told someone
329
00:20:04,171 --> 00:20:06,895
how I was
really feeling.
330
00:20:06,999 --> 00:20:10,446
Stuff I really did.
331
00:20:11,240 --> 00:20:15,068
Not like that anyway.
332
00:20:15,171 --> 00:20:19,068
Not without thinking that they
were gonna, uh, manipulate me
333
00:20:19,171 --> 00:20:25,550
or uh, take it, take advantage
of me, or manipulate me.
334
00:20:25,653 --> 00:20:29,206
I want to do
that for you.
335
00:20:29,308 --> 00:20:35,550
I confess to a priest,
like everybody else.
336
00:20:35,653 --> 00:20:38,206
Y'know...
everything I deal with,
337
00:20:38,308 --> 00:20:43,757
everyone is
so full of shit.
338
00:20:43,860 --> 00:20:46,033
Y'know, posturing.
339
00:20:46,137 --> 00:20:47,688
[sniffs]
340
00:20:47,791 --> 00:20:50,206
I didn't realize how
much I was like them,
341
00:20:50,308 --> 00:20:53,206
until I
came back here.
342
00:20:53,308 --> 00:20:56,791
People treat me
like I'm special.
343
00:20:58,240 --> 00:21:01,791
Fawn over me.
344
00:21:01,895 --> 00:21:05,999
Like I've earned it.
345
00:21:06,102 --> 00:21:09,274
[laughs]
346
00:21:09,377 --> 00:21:13,274
I've done nothing
to earn it, y'know?
347
00:21:13,377 --> 00:21:16,999
The world doesn't
revolve around me.
348
00:21:17,999 --> 00:21:20,791
You reminded me of that.
349
00:21:20,895 --> 00:21:24,688
[sighs]
350
00:21:24,791 --> 00:21:28,619
Do you have anything
to confess because I'm--?
351
00:21:28,722 --> 00:21:30,274
[door opens]
352
00:21:30,377 --> 00:21:33,274
[heavy, frustrated sigh]
353
00:21:33,377 --> 00:21:34,860
Oh! [laughs in
surprise] Ho-oh!
354
00:21:34,964 --> 00:21:36,274
Whoa, whoa,
what is this?
355
00:21:36,377 --> 00:21:37,964
I thought about you.
Ugh.
356
00:21:38,068 --> 00:21:42,826
I confess that.
357
00:21:42,929 --> 00:21:48,239
You made me feel safe
and I never feel safe.
358
00:21:48,343 --> 00:21:49,826
[chuckles nervously]
359
00:21:49,929 --> 00:21:51,239
I want you to know--
360
00:21:51,343 --> 00:21:52,826
[clears throat]
361
00:21:52,929 --> 00:21:55,999
that I feel comfort
when I look at you.
362
00:21:56,102 --> 00:21:58,274
You need to go
back on the other side.
363
00:21:58,377 --> 00:21:59,860
[taps screen]
Why?
364
00:21:59,964 --> 00:22:00,895
[slaps hands to lap]
365
00:22:01,895 --> 00:22:02,446
[laughs] Because this
is really inappropriate.
366
00:22:02,550 --> 00:22:03,377
Ohhh.
[resisting] Mm!
367
00:22:03,481 --> 00:22:04,377
Mmmm.
Mm!
368
00:22:04,481 --> 00:22:06,688
[lips smack]
369
00:22:06,688 --> 00:22:09,860
[Priest inhales heavily
and laughs awkwardly]
370
00:22:09,860 --> 00:22:11,205
You, you gotta go!
371
00:22:11,205 --> 00:22:12,860
Just let me help you.
372
00:22:12,860 --> 00:22:15,343
Look--
[exhales heavily]
373
00:22:15,343 --> 00:22:17,688
you're confused? Right?
374
00:22:17,688 --> 00:22:20,653
And you're drunk so
you just, you gotta leave.
375
00:22:20,653 --> 00:22:23,137
I can see you
struggling with whatever it is
376
00:22:23,137 --> 00:22:25,653
you pretend isn't
going on in your mind, okay?
377
00:22:25,653 --> 00:22:27,033
[sighs]
378
00:22:27,033 --> 00:22:33,343
You want to lie about it
but you can't fight it either.
379
00:22:33,343 --> 00:22:36,860
Just, just
fucking let it out.
380
00:22:36,860 --> 00:22:38,688
[breathes nervously]
381
00:22:38,688 --> 00:22:42,343
Ah, I feel so
much better, heh, heh!
382
00:22:42,343 --> 00:22:45,999
Heh! C'mon.
C'mon. Go. Go.
383
00:22:45,999 --> 00:22:49,895
I know you
believe what I'm saying.
384
00:22:49,895 --> 00:22:51,377
Okay, listen to me.
Mm.
385
00:22:51,377 --> 00:22:54,860
Do you hear me?
Mhmm!
386
00:22:54,860 --> 00:22:59,170
Either you go,
or I will. Alright?
387
00:22:59,170 --> 00:23:04,412
You're not my confidante
and I am not your friend!
388
00:23:04,412 --> 00:23:06,033
Do you get me?
389
00:23:06,033 --> 00:23:09,964
You've misconstrued
this relationship, all right?
390
00:23:09,964 --> 00:23:11,964
You can't help me.
391
00:23:11,964 --> 00:23:14,929
You're too
chickenshit to ask!
392
00:23:14,929 --> 00:23:16,791
Go home. Go home.
393
00:23:16,791 --> 00:23:19,412
I don't want
to go home!
394
00:23:19,412 --> 00:23:21,757
There's nothing
for me there!
395
00:23:21,757 --> 00:23:25,101
I want to hear
you tell the truth!
396
00:23:25,101 --> 00:23:27,929
Tit for tat, 'kay?
397
00:23:27,929 --> 00:23:31,033
That's the deal.
398
00:23:31,033 --> 00:23:33,033
[whispered] No.
399
00:23:33,033 --> 00:23:38,964
No deal. Go.
400
00:23:38,964 --> 00:23:40,377
FUCKING COWARD!
401
00:23:40,377 --> 00:23:41,964
[sigh of relief]
402
00:23:41,964 --> 00:23:48,999
[slams door
and stomps away]
403
00:23:51,791 --> 00:23:57,067
[inhales deeply,
exhales nervously]
404
00:23:57,067 --> 00:24:29,032
?
405
00:24:29,032 --> 00:24:31,205
Narrator:
Next time on 'Forgive Me':
406
00:24:31,205 --> 00:24:33,481
Am I standing in
for the perpetrator?
407
00:24:33,481 --> 00:24:35,274
You're a representative
of the church.
408
00:24:35,274 --> 00:24:36,860
And what are you?
409
00:24:36,860 --> 00:24:39,101
I went to you because
you had the authority.
410
00:24:39,101 --> 00:24:41,860
I can imagine how it
would seem that way.
411
00:24:41,860 --> 00:24:43,274
Now it
doesn't anymore.
412
00:24:43,274 --> 00:24:47,481
The nightmare.
It never goes away.
413
00:24:47,481 --> 00:24:50,481
Ye-- it might
soon, more so.
414
00:24:50,481 --> 00:24:52,826
Kills me to
see him like this.
415
00:24:52,826 --> 00:24:54,101
I did this.
416
00:24:54,101 --> 00:24:57,515
That sleeping dog was lying
for 30 years til I woke it up.
417
00:24:57,565 --> 00:25:02,115
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